What if.....?

"What if today is the day that everything changes?"

                                      - Lara Casey

      "What if...." is my greatest fear!  Seems odd that two words can bring up such dread and send me spiraling into anxiety.  It's also interesting to me that the above mentioned phrase is always followed by a negative event.  What if......

          the world comes to an end tomorrow.

          I fail at a task.

          people stop loving me.

          I loose someone close to me.

          I get sick and die.

          I don't get something done I should have.

What if...., What if....., What if......  Here I sit thinking of all the energy and time I have wasted on this.  The phrase is really not the problem.  It's my mindset and how I use it as a crutch to hold me back from really enjoying and excelling in life.  I am going to learn to change my thinking and everytime the critical side of me pops up with a "What if...", I am going counter it with a positive spin.  Let's take a few from my above mentioned list.  Thought bubble appears above my head stating, "What if the world comes to an end tomorrow."  I am going to respond with a resounding, "It very well might.  However, what if it doesn't and I have wasted a perfectly glorious day on something that may or may not even happen?"  Someone might say, "Come on Christina that "what if..." is a little out there."  It's true when I sit back and gain perspective it does seem silly that I would even listen to or entertain that voice.  However, I truly can fall into the rut of perceiving that the sky is falling.  Another speech bubble that I often entertain is, "What if I fail at a task?"  So here's the thing.  I am human and as such, I will probably face failure often.  "But what if I truly get it right?  What if by following my passion I affect change not only for myself but those around me?"  Today I am plugging into the positive side of the "What if...."